I have decided that I need to stop complaining so much. I need to start looking at the positive instead of the negative or I really will start to believe that the world is an awful place. I am afraid of driving people away from me with my negativity. It needs to change.

Ironically, on a negative note, I feel very fat. But I am hoping that more frequent and intense trips to the gym will remedy this. It is just very discouraging to feel like I have lost such control and to feel so disgusted by myself.

I had lunch with Rachel and Kate today. It was very nice and very relaxing after the crazy morning I had. But I couldn't stop thinking about how skinny they both are and how fat I am! I want results now!!