On a positive note, Meghan's sister, Allison, was talking to Kyle, the lifeguard who I used to know. He was telling her that one of us (it was me, Meghan, and Rachel) looked familiar to him. Allison told him who I was, and he was like "oh my god! She looks totally different!" Allison said "he was saying 'oh my god' for like 20 minutes."

I was hoping he'd come over and talk to me, cause I'd like to see how he's doing. He also looks so different from what I remember.

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Everybody knows it hurts to grow up.

I love my grandmother. She just came and consoled me and told me that they're the only ones losing anything, and that they need me and stuff. And that it'll all work out. It's pretty damn hard to believe that now.
But I love her.
And I feel like crap for crying to her about my friends when she got in a horrible car accident and this is nothing compared to that.