Just to clarify, I was up till 2 a.m. writing. Not talking.

Today was good. Went to the club and tried to get my mind off of things. Tanned a little. I don't think I got burned.

I have been, for the most part, unable to stop thinking about it. It's unfair to give someone something that changes everything and then run away.

I can't believe people can hold things in for years and not explode.